It's okay

 It's okay to want someone you can't have.  It's okay to cry when you're hurt, and it's okay to stay mad at someone who hurt you. Believe it or not it's always going to be ok. That's just how life works. Sometimes things don't work out how you want them to, and a lot of times, it seems like they never will. But it's okay, that's how life is supposed to go. It's all about learning to deal with the things that go wrong in life, and making them right again. It's all about forgiving and forgetting, it's all about wanting and wishing. That's just how life goes.

So keep your held high, remember you are worth it, and keep smiling.

Already?!

That's right, it's December.. tomorrow!
Where in the world has 2010 gone!? Well I'm not the one to answer that but it has given me many memories I will never forget :)

-I went on an amazing vacation with my family
-Got my license :) Wahooooo!!
-Had an amazing summer, filled with to many experinces to share. haha
-My cousin and I have become basically sisters.. yes we even fight like sisters, and thats ok :)
-Went to my first year of acceleration.. fun times!
-I've become so close to my best friends, and become close to many other people
-My cat had 28 kittens haha! How could I forget that!
-I had my first major crush.. even though it hasn't gone anywhere
-My grandma turned 80!
-I am no longer the youngest class in high school
-I have begun to develop confidence, and I love it

These are just a few of the amazing things times I have had.. I can't wait to see what else happens:)
Thank you 2010 for being an amazing year, and I know December will be just as amazing!

Fading

This is hard to admit.. but my feelings are fading :(
It's the hardest thing for me... I never thought it would happen. I know there was nothing there, but the feelings have always been there. The odd thing is though, even though I seem to think the feelings are fading.. I still can't get over you. It really is the hardest thing ever! The worst part is, there is nothing for me to even get over..

This is a sign for me to move on.. it's just a phase I have been going through.

I'm still hoping one day you will notice me, just like I noticed you.
I will never, ever, lose hope.

A little late...

I know i'm a little late on wishing everyone a Happy Thanksgiving.. so instead..
I just wanna say I hope everyone had an amazing Thanksgiving.
I know I did!

On Thursday I was with my one side of the family, and then on Saturday I got to see the other side of the family :) It's the best. My uncles make me laugh uncontrolably, my cousin and I got to hang out (we are basically sisters), and I got to see everyone I love most in the world. Thank you to all of you who make my life wonderful.

 I hope everyone had a just as amazing Thanksgiving as I did.

Cookies :)

tonight i made my favorite cookie!
you guessed it...chocolate chip :)

Let's try again :)

So for real here is my christmas list :)

                                                                        I want a pair of brown ugg boots :)

Next I want a northface jacket :) not sure what color!
but any willl do!

And just like I posted not to long ago, I want Photoshop lightroom 3!

Also I would love money :) and CLOTHES! haha

Dear Santa...

for Christmas send me a boy :)
yes there is one in particular! And you know who he is :)
haha thank you! I've been a good girl this year! :)

Love, me :)

Understanding

Isn't it the best when someone completely understand you? I love it. Or when you completely understand someone so good that they don't have to tell you what they are feeling, because you already know?!
Thank you to my friends who are always there for me.

I love you all :)

Creepy!

Ya sometimes people creep me out.. and I didn't even know right away! :/
I hope it doesn't last long...

Basketball.... Finally :)

I've gone to two open gyms... and they are kicking my butt!! haha
I think i'm in shape, and then boom after running up and down the court six times I can barely breathe!
Oh well it is worth it :) I LOVE BASKETBALL!

Have a good night :)

WANTED!

Yep this is what I want so badly!
I keep finding good things about it, and I'm really getting into photography!
Hello Christmas list :)

Unsure

Do you ever get unsure of yourself?
Well I know I do.. and it seems to happening alot lately...
I don't like it one bit... makes me feel like I can't control everything!
Which I know I can't, but sometimes I wish I could!
 Oh well! Everything happens for a reason!

Making Progress :)

Wahoo! Finally making progress :)
and I haven't told anyone! haha
so happy and excited

yes this includes him:)

Forget and Believe

I should:
 Forget that he is out of my league.. and a senior!
 Forget that he hasn't dated anybody, and probably won't change his mind.
Forget that it's insane of me to like him
Forget that I think we would make a cute couple

I need to believe that it will happen because my heart tells me it will :)

Avoiding

Everyone has things they do to avoid what they SHOULD be doing!
Here are some things I do:

* Photography
* Looking at pictures
* Facebook
* Looking at things online
* and anything that I can do to avoid homework :) haha

Risk

I think so :)

Have you...

ever been afraid to lose something that's not even yours?

It's the worst feeling in the world.. and no one can

understand unless they have the same problem.

Hugs :)

I love hugs :)
and thank you for hugging me today and then talking to me :)
thank you for making my day!

Semi-Finals :)

I am so excited for tomorrow because.... FOOTBALL :)
Semi Finals here we come!!
I know we can do it! Let's go team :)

Dreaming

I keep dreaming of you...
I'm not sure why. It is said that if you think about things before bed,
 you will dream of them. Also it's said that if you dream of someone,
 it means that that person was thinking of you.
I'm guessing it's just my mind thinking these things,
 and then dreaming of them, but i'm not sure.
It's weird also becuase I never remember my dreams
 and just for the past two night I have...

I wish my dreams would come true :) haha