Thanks alot

Thanks alot for being an a**hole

Love,

NEM

Things Have Changed

It's weird to think how things have changed so much in just a few weeks.

Tomorrow is the day I couldn't wait for.

Now I'm not sure what to think.

Should I feel hurt?

Or happy that I'm trying to move on?

I miss you...like crazy.

I try not to show it, but it is hard.

You don't even realize anything you've done.

Hopefully tomorrow I will have a good day anyways :)

Yes please!



I love love this hair!



Hardest Thing

"It may seem as the hardest thing to do, but you have to forget about the guy who forgot about you."

-The Notebook

Door of Happiness

"When one door of happiness clothes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us"

-Helen Keller

Few things I'm loving this week :)

I think this is absolutely adorable!

awwwwwwwwwwwwe :)

Also a quote:

 " Remember God will never take something out of your life without the intention of replacing it with something better "

Your loss

I'm doing it.

I'm staying strong.

Without you.

I can be happy without you.

Your loss.

I can't just sit around and wait.

I can and will do this without you :)

Every Story

You just have to figure out when one story needs to end, so another can begin.

It'll be ok

Yes. Yes it will.

Where?

So now the real question is:

Where do we go from here?

How can I pretend everything is ok? and just forget everything?

Hopefully I'm off to bigger and better things.

Hopefully.

Homecoming week :)

MONDAY: RETRO/CRAZY DAY

TUESDAY: JOHN HANCOCK DAY

- Coronation

-Volleyball game

I love these girls! :)

Homecoming King and Queen

WEDNESDAY: OPPOSITES DAY

-Didn't dress up because we had a career thing we had to go to!

THURSDAY: NERD DAY

-We had a volleyball game, and won:)

-Also worked on our hallway for four hours! The theme was candybars

FRIDAY: SCHOOL COLORS

-Parade

-Dance

-Football game

I love this girl <3

 

Our float had a giant crunch bar!

All in all it was a great week :)

Actions, not words

 {I can no longer trust words, only actions}

Even though you will never know, I'm thanking you for teaching me this.

Best Friends

I love my best friends.

I know they are always here for me, no matter what!

They really are the best!

Also, aren't they all just GORGEOUS!? :)

P.s. lots and lots of pictures to come from my Homecoming week! :)

Unfinished

I know this.

So how come I can't let go?

When I know I'll more then likely get hurt in the long run...

Sparks Fly

The way you move is like a full on rainstorm
And I'm a house of cards
You're the kind of reckless
That should send me runnin'

But I kinda know that I won't get far

And you stood there in front of me
Just close enough to touch
Close enough to hope you couldn't see
What I was thinking of

Drop everything now
Meet me in the pouring rain
Kiss me on the sidewalk
Take away the pain
'cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile
Get me with those green eyes, baby, as the lights go down
Give me something that'll haunt me when you're not around
'cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile

My mind forgets to remind me
You're a bad idea
You touch me once and it's really something,
You find I'm even better than you imagined I would be.
I'm on my guard for the rest of the world
But with you I know it's no good
 And I could wait patiently but I really wish you would...

 

Prepare

Always hoping. Always.

Believe in Something

You must believe in something.

I have my reasons.

People don't unerstand, but then again neither do I sometimes.
I'm going with the flow, following my gut feeling

People tell me I should just forget it.

I don't fight it when they say it, because they don't understand all of it.

I have to go with what I know and

believe

Little While

He made me smile,
even if it was just for a little while.

I'm thankful for that.

I really am.

Never Easy

Never a clean break

Someone like you

" I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.

Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
"I'll remember", you said,
Sometimes it lasts in love
But sometimes it hurts instead "

This song is everything that I'm feeling.

I really wish the best for you, even if I'm not apart of that.

But yet it hurts.

I told you not to forget me, and you said you could never do that.

But here I am. Alone.

And not with you.

I really hope that you realize what you did really hurt me, and still is.

I hope that it hits you right smack in the face, and you realize.

Mind Blowing

It's mind blowing that someone meant so much to me.

But obviously I didn't mean that much to them.

I was lead on, and didn't even know it.

I suspected it occasionally, but just shrugged it off.

I told myself I was being silly, but really my conscious was right.

But hey, I was just following my heart.

But then when I followed my head, the truth finally came out.

Better now then later. :'(

Horrible

Locks have been changed

I just can't...

A battle, I'll never win

It started, and it was something I couldn't believe. You. You liked me. I was in awe and disbelief. I was sooooo happy. It always felt so good to be true, and I was always second guessing myself. I just went with the flow. I always had something to look forward to, and that something was you.

What you put me through is something I would never wish on anyone. I would never want them to have to deal with that. I should feel so much hatred towards you... but I just can't. I can't force myself to just forget you.

But now... I have nothing. The walls came tumbling down and you left me here, fighting a battle I'll never win. What I am left with now is hundereds of tears, a broken heart, and the memory of you.

Show me

Confused

Mixed feelings are the worst thing ever.

To make this story short and save you some time:

I'm more confused then ever.

:'(



Note to self

I really hope so.

Roller Coaster Ride

This week really has been a roller coaster ride.

Just when I thought everything was just right, everything is wrong.

I had a feeling this was always coming, but just didn't want to believe it.

I tried, and am still trying, but I'm having trouble seeing the point.

You could change everything, and yet you don't.

Do you know? I wish you did!

Because I sure as hell can't keep going on like this.

No, no I can't.

I never knew someone could mean so much.

Please

P.L.E.A.S.E.