Monday, May 28, 2012

I miss you


 I miss your smile.  I miss your laugh. I miss your ability to change my mood from sad to happy. I miss holding your hand. I miss cuddling up to you. I miss having you right beside me. I miss kissing you. I miss you tickling me until I couldn't breathe. I miss when you would kiss me on the cheek. I miss you laughing at me. I miss everything.
 I miss you.

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Falling Apart


I can just feel things falling apart. You are pulling away from me, and there is nothing I can do about it. I'm trying to fix things. Trying to bring you back to me, but I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what to say. Is this just a phase? I'm feeling crushed, but maybe I should have seen this coming all along. I just want to understand.
I always like what's not good for me.

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

When we first kissed

I can't help the smile that forms on my face, and you are the reason why :)

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Monday, May 14, 2012

Happy Place


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You are where I can escape all the madness. I can go to you when i'm sad, happy, or anything in between. All I can say is thank you! :)

Sunday, May 13, 2012

It's Real


I'm so happy. Things are going so good, and I just am overjoyed! I don't talk to people about it much, and I'm actually okay with that. They probably don't want to know anyways. Plus I don't want people judging me. I can do what I want, and I will. Because if it makes me happy, then it's worth it.

Perfect

Monday, April 16, 2012

So hurt

I feel so hurt, but maybe I had this coming all along. What I thought I wanted, and what I actually want dont' seem to be in balance. I feel like I've completely messed this up for myself. I don't know what to do, or if there is anything I could even do. I want to be mad, but then when I talk to you I can't stay mad. Then afterwards I remember why I was mad, and how you don't understand. I expected to much. I got what I wanted, and then I blew it. I just don't know what to do :(

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Spinning Circles

That is what my head has been doing for the last day or two. I don't know how I'm supposed to act. I don't know how I even feel. Shocked. Surprised. Excited. Nervous. I'm wasting so much energy dwelling and worrying about how it will go. I hope everything goes good.
My fingers are crossed.

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

YOU have a purpose!

A quote that I once heard came back to me tonight, and I want to share it! :)
"God would never make you do, or go through something that he hasn't already been through himself"

When you think that you can't go on anymore, just remember you were put here for a purpose. You have a reason to be here. Because YOU will make a difference, wether you know it or not! Best of all, you will make it through it!


Monday, February 13, 2012

Happy Valentine's Day!

So as my lovely followers, you all know that at this point I don't have a significant other! Of course tomorrow is Valentine's Day, and in a earlier post I made a comment on how I don't particularly enjoy the day all that much! Well then I got to thinking, I don't have to have someone to have a special day tomorrow. I can tell the people that are most important to me, how much they mean to me! So here goes nothing!

Brittany Ann
Where to even begin with you? You mean the absolute world to me. We don't talk as much anymore, but when we do I know that I can ALWAYS count on you. You know absolutely everything about me. You know when I'm happy, you know when I need comfort, you just know me! You and I fight like we are sisters and love like sisters. I can say something without even fully explaining it, and you know exactly what I mean. I will never be able to thank you enough for what you do for me. Seriously. I LOVE YOU!

McKayla Marie
Oh Mckayla! You are the best. No lie. I just love you! You can finish my sentences for me! You and I are so much alike it's actually sort of scary sometimes! :) haha You are always there when I need you. If I am having an off day, you just smile at me and tell it'll be okay! You always seem to have the right thing to say to make me feel better. You probably don't even know, but when you simply listen to me, I already feel better. Thanks for always being YOU! Don't you ever change! <3

Marah Jean
Marah, Marah, Marah! Where do I begin? You are there when I seem so lost. When I feel like something is never going to work out, you are there to tell me it will. It seems like once I've lost my hope, you have the right thing to say to let me regain my hope! You have the best advice, and that's why I love you! You can cheer me up in a heart beat! You always know how to make me laugh! Seeing some of the tough things you have gone through just makes me admire you so much for staying strong, and that is one thing I will always take away from you. STRENGTH! Thanks for being such an amazing best friend and role model! I love you!

Abby Lynne
ABBYYYYYYY! Oh girl you are so gorgeous! Not to mention an amazing best friend :) You can just read me. Seriously. I look at you and you know what I'm thinking, and I can do the same to you. We can look at each other and not say a word, and we will begin to laugh because we know exactly what the other person is thinking. You are always there for me. You barely have to say anything, and I already am feeling better. I know I can always come to with any problem I have! Or any exciting news I have, you always want the best for me and I love that. Thank you so much for everything you have done for me. Words honestly can't say enough! I love you my porcelain princess! ;)

Lindsey Marie
Goodness lady you are making me think! :) You and I have become so close this year! I can't even remember what it was like not to be this close to you! You and I can talk about the most random thing, and somehow it is still interesting! Your laugh is probably the most contagious thing I have ever heard. If you laugh, I laugh, and then you laugh again and the cycle never ends! I love you for everything you do for me! Thanks for being so amazing! :)

Molly Joy
You are one beautiful girly! Sometimes I don't think you realize how amazing you are! :) You have a way of making a horrible day, a better day in a heart beat. You can just leave me a sticky note in my locker, and just like that my day is that much better. You have the cutest laugh I have ever heard. I love when you are laughing so hard you can barely breathe! You seriously are one of the strongest people I know, and don't ever forget it! Thank you so much for meaning so much to me! I love you bunches!

My wonderful family <3
Where would I be without any of you? All I know is, I sure wouldn't be who I am today! My sense of humor comes from my dad, my sweetness and caringness comes from my mom, my ability to be myself I have learned from my brother, and allowing myself to smile and laugh during the toughest times comes from my sister. I love you more than words can express. All four of you. Thank you for being the best family ever! <3

Grandparents
I have the three best grandparents I could ask for! My grandma and grandpa Bren always know how to put a smile on my face. I love the time I get to spend with you two, and I love seeing you at all my sporting events! Thanks for being so great! My other grandma, Aggie, you mean the world to me. I am so close to you. You and I are so much alike! Everyone says I act alot like you, and thats wonderful because you are such an outstanding person! I love playing cards with you, eating supper with you, and even cleaning your house for you! I just love the time I spend with you! Thanks so much for helping on my journey through life! <3 I love you three!

I can't forget to mention my grandparents in heaven. I know you guys aren't hear physically, but I know you are watching out for me and my loved ones! I love you guys, and miss you more then words can say! <3

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Your heart


Do what you feel in your heart to be right, for you will be criticized anyway

Soft Beauty on we heart it / visual bookmark #22710347

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UGH!
Valentines Day is coming, and let's just say I'm not looking forward too it. It's not that I'm not happy for people in love, sometimes it's just hard to watch. One day maybe I'll enjoy that day too!

It's a little thing called RESPECT



Ever heard of it? Well if you have, you should probably start showing some!
That was just beyond disrespectful, and trust me I was not the only one who thought that!
I know you are better thent that, so PLEASE for everyone's sake show some
R E S P E C T

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Pinterest!

So obviously I haven't been on here in a long time, but you can still catch up with my else where! Especially Pinterst! Follow me here if you want! :)
Here are some of the things I've pinned recently!

Who would've thought that an upside down frech braid could be so cute with a bun!? I can't wait to try this out sometime!
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This is a quote that I found about getting fit, and I just love it. I should probably print it out and put it somewhere so whenever I see it I can remind myself to be the best me I can be, and not worry about others!
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This is GORGEOUS hair and makeup! I loveeee it!
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I can barely wait any longer for this movie! It looks amazing, and I have a feeling I'm going to love it! :) And not to mention that Channing Tatum is in the movie! That makes it 100 times better!
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So if you don't know that I love chocolate, you know now! How could anyone resist something that looks soooo yummy!?
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Last but not least! My class has been doing alot of prom planning lately, and so of course I've been on a mission to find a prom dress! Here is the dress I have fallen in love with, and I hope I can get it! :)
Pinned here! :)
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Sunday, January 8, 2012

Pulled In


Even though my feelings for you are gone, everytime someone says your name, my head turns right toward them. It's like I'm being pulled in. It's like everytime I hear your name I think of everything we could've had, and all that could've happened that didn't.

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Summer Whirlwind

Today it was summer all over again.
The feelings came raging back to me like a whirlwind.
I didn't think I would be disappointed, but I was.
I thought maybe that you seeing me would change things, and make you realize.
But the chance for that to happen won't even be there.
I couldn't show that it bothered me.
I just smiled it off.
I had to pretend it would be okay without you when really it's not okay.